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Recently I received a blessing I didn’t deserve.
I don’t deserve the good things that come to me. And this, of course is what all good Christians must say. We can never deserve what we get from God. We can never be good enough to be worth his sacrifice.
But I disagree.
Having recently been in the place were blessing was so outlandishly given to one so phenomenally undeserving, I felt something I had not felt in a long time. Typically in these situations, I feel guilty. I feel like I’m slime of the earth for putting God out. I feel like I don’t deserve to live.
Perhaps this reveals something about me. Perhaps I need a counselor.
But this time I felt something different. I have never seen “Saving Private Ryan”, but I hear that in the last scene, with Tom Hanks’ character dying and Private Ryan deeply distressed, Tom Hanks says to the young man, “Live, so as to make this worth it.”
Can I make the cross “worth it” to God? Can I become the kind of person that when God considers the cost, she says it’s worth it? When God considers the pain he endured on the cross and weighs it against the joy of having me in his company, does God rejoice? Or does she consider it was all for not when it comes to me? Am I the kind of person that would be good company to God? Am I the kind of person that would want to keep company with God?
I feel compelled to live this blessing so as to make it worth it to God to have given it. It’s not a matter of “earning it”. It is a matter of seeing what is better than yourself and being inspired. It is a friendly gesture by one who is “out of my league”. (Can he mean me?) It is a matter of thinking to yourself, “well, by God, if he thinks I would make a good friend, maybe I would…”
Goal for today: Become the kind of person that would make eternity more enjoyable for God.
posted by Headless-in-GR @ 3/25/2004 09:11:17 AM
Seattle or Sahara?
I am convinced that God made cloudy days for sleeping in. There is an amazing difference in my ability to actually get out of bed depended upon the amount of sunlight coming through my windows.
Having pondered this more, I am trying to decide which I would prefer...the Sahara Desert or Seattle?
posted by Headless-in-GR @ 3/12/2004 09:13:13 AM
By God...
There are a lot of really smart folks in this world who have taken on the issues of the cross. Since Mel Gibson's film has been out, I've heard several different discussions concerning "why Jesus had to die". Most all of them have been excellent discussions containing what seem to be very valid points...yet no one of them seem to be exactly right or seem to get exactly to the heart of the thing.
So...you're expecting me to? Yeah right!
The thing is, it is a higher thing...
But I still have something to say about it, OF COURSE! Did you really think I'd be quite? Come on!
Ok, here's what I see in it. I see someone who loves me, and I ignored him. And so he introduced himself to me and I said, "nice to meet you" and went on about life. But he loved me, so he tried to walk with me, but not in the paths I wanted, so he bothered me. And on and on, he reached out to me and I became more and more violent in my protests until finally...he was screaming "I love you!" and I was screaming "I hate you!". We were locked in battle...and I did what I had to do to win. I finished the business.
But by God, he keeps coming back.
He loved in his woundedness. He loved in his death. He never, never stopped. He wins.
posted by Headless-in-GR @ 3/05/2004 07:51:59 AM
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